Transitions from Tracy Phutikanit

Blog Post from Tracy Phutikanit

Transition: the process or a period of changing from one state or condition to another…

 I’ve been in Seattle for a grand total of 7 weeks now and it’s safe to say that my transition into Seattle, the SDA program and a new part of my life has been adventurous and emotionally challenging. I’ve gone through several transitions all at the same time, which has had its own challenges:

 Transition #1: California to Washington

Transition #2: Full time staff member to Graduate Assistant

Transition #3: Living with family toLiving alone

Transition #4: Having existing friends to Making new ones

Transition #5: Driving everywhere to Busing/Walking everywhere

 There have been many tears, thoughts of remorse, anxiety and reflection over the last few weeks and the main realization that I’ve had through all of this is how wonderful the students of SDA have been. I’ve constantly been amazed and surprised because of how nice and welcoming everyone has been. Whether it’s been grabbing a cup of coffee and chatting or just checking in to see how I am, it’s such a beautiful and natural thing to see happen. People care about me and genuinely want to know how I’m doing. That’s something I didn’t really expect to happen so it’s been quite a pleasant surprise.

 Especially after being able to spend all day this past Saturday at the SUSDA retreat with new and continuing students, it’s been lovely just getting to know our SDA family, as I’m not able to have class or interact with everyone on a daily basis. Sometimes, knowing people care and knowing others are going through the same thing as you are is what you really need. Just to know that you’re not alone in the world and not the only one experiencing the sense of loneliness, stress or confusion at the moment.

 If you’ve already gotten settled in and are loving life, wonderful. If you’re struggling a bit, let me extend some words of wisdom that have gotten me through the various bumps in the road. Only you can find your happy and what it meant to you, but in the meantime, here are some thoughts:

 1)    Be grateful that you have a job, assistantship, internship or work experience. There are others out there aren’t as lucky or fortunate as we are.

2)    We’re in graduate school! (Newsflash right?) Just the fact that we’re here means that we have a privilege that not a lot of others have the chance to.

3)    Think back and remember what made you choose Seattle University and what circumstances brought you here.

4)    Remember that there will always be people that love you and support you whether it’s your friends and family back home or your new SUSDA family.

5)    You are not the general manager of the universe. Don’t fret about things that you can’t control i.e. the weather, gas prices, construction on Broadway, rerouted buses, rude people, the economy, decline of bee populations on earth, moon phases etc. Worry about you and what you can control.

6)    It’s not the challenges that define you; it’s how you handle them that make and show who you are.

 Lastly, I’d like to end with a quote from Steve Jobs that has helped me remind myself why I do what I do. Hopefully this can inspire all the students in SDA get through all of your discernment in the coming months.  

 “Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” – Steve Jobs


2 thoughts on “Transitions from Tracy Phutikanit

  1. Thank you for sharing this, Tracy, and for your honesty. I’m sure you’re not the only one feeling this way! I’d like to add one thing to your advice list: 7) Take opportunities to meet new people and develop communities outside of SDA/SU. This is gradual, but it will really make you feel more connected to Seattle, as well as the program. Stay strong, it will get better! :)

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